Every wedding has their own story... so do i~

Let's go back to 1 week before the wedding...

Struggle tuk final exam dh lepas... don't ask how my exam was. HEARTLESS~

And then, struggle ngn thesis. This time aku bawak keje2 pergi kje.. nasib baik keje2 x kne bawak blk rumah... Prepare tuk presentation final of course~

Guess who are my panels for my presentation? Hurm...
The first one, ex-naval officer (I knew from his name... Laksamana Pertama bla bla bla bla (B))
The second one, a lecturer... teaching environmental law...

LUCKY mE!

i was grilled like a meat! haha. but then, act as normal as i can... with the sweetest smile i can give at that moment (even x tau cm mana rupa snyuman time tu)

ok. enough for presentation. biar tersimpan sbagai kngan~

then, the presentation should end at 6pm (6pm ok! n tomorrow will be my wedding day!) as the conclusion, I skip perjumpaan itu~ kul 3, abs presnt trs blek.

blk, and then g kuar beli barang2 yang x ckup... sedara mara x tau kdai2 area sni... kluar umah pagi td dengan smua x ready.. then bila blk, bilik dh kmas... hntaran tgh d buat~ sgt sedih n terharu tengok...

antara hantaran yang dh siap

my Mr flower man!

around 6, dengan ujan yg sangat2 lebat, bleh lg g Jusco tuk cari barang2...
kul 8 o 9 (x  tau dh kul brape) g amk my best fren br sampai kl...
kul 10, g anta brg kt incik fiancee...

blek, iron bju...bla bla bla.. 12.30 dah kne bising coz x pkai inai lg...

tdo dengan keadaan yg super x slesa. haish! ngn bilik yg sjuk cm peti ais (coz letak kek dalam bilik x nk bg cair)


not to mention, ak cuma tido 45 minit je mlam tu. kul 3 lebih dh x tahan ngn bnda2 yg merimaskan...

my fren kejut tuk lukis inai kt tangan. gud. kul 3.30... br 15 mnit pkai dh rase cm ntah pape...

baru nk tdo, hari pagi... hurm...

da engagement

slepas 8 thun b'knalan,

2 chapter bhgian couple or in relation,

we decided tuk bertunang...

mngharapkn yg terbaik~

dari couple lame2, mungkin ni yg t'baik? kn...

from me to him

from him wif luv

kalau korng perasan  la~ hntaran dr pihak laki lbh byk dr phak prmpuan... 

yg mn patutnye pihak prmpuan hntr lbh byk~

ni smua lst mnute bg tau n dh x de idea ap nk bg...

antara yg hadir

mekaseh tuk smua yg mmbntu tuk mjlis ni... sgt terharu actly...

especially tuk family ku yg b'ssh pyh btkn hntrn...

n fmily my fiancee yg dtg smpai 7 buah keta~

luv u guys~

 

huhu~

=)

spnjng mjlis ni, hm... ade bbrape bnda yg jadi...

tp ak lynkn jer~

time mjlis b'lngsung, both my parents x sht n dmm dh smggu~

thts y smua hntrn sblh pmpuan d bt sehari sbelum ngn p'tolongan smua mkcik n pkcik yg kreatif n skekn bidng seni =) *tq sgt2. muax*

2nd, on my engagemnt day, mak andam or org yg b'tnggungjwb tuk makeup dh TERlupa tarikh~ hmmm

*million thnx tuk cik zaza yg make up. nsb baik anda mmg mak andam! cme x sngka tetamu kne mkeup kn n x smpat mke up tuk dri sndiri..*

my fiancee x tdo semalaman coz dr phang direct to perak... smpai on that day jam 9 pg n terus b'siap ke mjlis.. since dier x dibnarkn ade d tpt kjadian, time dia dbenarkn msuk tu dier ad d kaunter tiket bas tuk bli tiket blk ke pahang. haish!

tema wrna peach ini sgt ssh okay! haish! 3 helai tdung kne reject coz x msuk wrna... lstnye pnjam pd mak cik sdara yg prnh gne wrna peach tuk mjlis tunang dier *err... sy dh pulngkn kn?*

sorry to incik raja yg x jmpa umh smpai mjlis slesai coz time dier cll tu dh trn bwh... but at least dtg mkn tgh ari ngn gf, frenz n his fmily.. =)

alhamdulillah mjlis b'jln lncar... thnx to all. luv u guys.

XOXO

the accident... the death...

it happnd yesterday...

ak knl arwah sejak masuk kje d kilng.. sethn dlu...

arwah selalu kcau2 time ak kne ambil sampel d tempat dia..

time tu mmg x selesa dgn dia... tp as long dia x cuba bt bnda yg x elok, ak kwn cm biasa...

time ak tgh bt kje kt PC yg mngadap bay 3, mula2 ak tgk Mani lari...

ak br nk tego dia jgn lari2 coz dia br operation...

bbrape minit leps tu ak tgk sorng bdk maintanance n sorng bdk production lari ke arah yg sama...

n Ah Fong ckp "tu ada bdk jatuh.. warehouse sana... kepala pecah..."

warehouse? cme ade 5 org pekerja warehouse... n smua ak knl... yg mn?

bbrape mnt lps tu ak g admin tuk tgk raw material ap yg smpai.

tgk org admin smua tgh gelisah. ak nk tau.. tp ak tkut nk tya... coz ak knl dier org smua..

"begitu teruk ker?"

tp ak tya gak...."err.. sp yg jatuh?"

"itu R... ambulans x smpai2 lg"

ak msuk semula ke lab dgn x chck raw material ap yg smpai..

"err.. korng tau x spe yg jtuh? R...."

labmate ak yg dh kje 3 thn ckp "haiya. dia pn kira close friend jugak.... boleh crita2..."

ble ak keluar dr bay 3 n tgk ke arah warehouse, smua pekerja prodction ad... n smua tgh menangis...

seseorng dtg n ckp "dia dh meninggl~"

ari ni... br blk dr majlis pengkebumian arwah ni ampang...

arwah br bernikah bulan Dec thn lalu... n majlis persndingan d jangka pada bulan Jun ini...

harap fmily n istri arwah tabah nghadapi...

at the end, kilng tutup tuk hari ni~

stay safe...

wedding...?!

i'm a woman.

age 24~

livng in KL~

on weekdays, i'm an employee..

on weekend, i'm a student...

scara jujur, PERKHWINN x prnah termasuk dlm 'senarai perncngan kehidupan'

my list was ~ abskn degree, kje, kmpul hrta, melancong every year, kje kt luar ngara.. n enjoy ngn duit sndiri.

that's it!

but suddently, it happen.

he came back...

dlm ak sibuk kjar cita2... enjoy my single life... kmpul hrta cm snarai, tiba2 hal yg x prnh d fkrkn msuk dlm snrai n bt smua yg d susun terpaksa dirombak~ hm...

is he the right one? ---- i don't know

do i have to get married? ---- YES!

is this the right time? ----- i don't know!

am i ready for this? COMMITMNT? --- I DON'T KNOW!!!!

bila kali t'akhir ak couple?

it was years ago... tu pun last for 2 months jer~

then i decided tuk tarik dri dr relation tu.

coz x ykin ngn dri sndiri tuk blajr n 'in relationship'

ni ker mksudnye tkut ngn komitmen?

tp bg ak, ak korbnkn relation tu tuk mase dpn kte org...

x slh kn?

n ape alasn tuk ak tolak kali ni?

x abs blajr lg? --- owh ak dh abs n nk abs lg skali...

blom kje? --- dh sethn lbh ak kje...

jaga mak ayh n komitmen ngn family? --- nmpk sgt tpunye~

blom sedia? -- YES! ak msih blom sdia ngn smua tu... mnta izin ngn smua bnda yg ak nk bt o mn sj yg ak nk pergi.. blom sdia tuk bt kputusn ngn kata2 seorng lelaki yg mn b4 ni smua kputusan ad kt tgn sndiri...

ak tutup mate n melihat jalan yg masih kabur~

finally~ da final draft!

woott~! wooot~!

FINALLY!

the final draft~

after weeks kegelisahan... tdo x lena n bt ap pn rs x kena je...

lps 2 ari cme tdo kurng 5 jm,

akhirnye ari isnin, 4.10 pagi... final draf pn siap n d send pade coursemate =)

tdo ngn nyenak even kne bgn dlm mase 3 jam lps tu...

pg itu bt kje ngn agk blurr2~ akibt x ckup tdo.

ngntuk smpai rs cm nk nangis!

*mata panda*

lunch hour pn x mkn,.. tp g tdo kt blk rehat...

ptg kje lak ngn klaparan... (owh dugaan idup!)

otw blk umh, ape lg~ drive thru McD je la... tu yg plng sng...

coz mmg dh smpai tahap lapar nk mkn org~ haish!

mlm, kul 8 lbh tdo smpai esk pg nk g kje blk...

wah...

what a life!

tuk smua org yg pernh ku temui

this is only an open letter tuk each n everyone i knew~

i had learn A L.O.T from u guys~

even yg cme knal kejap.. klau lame apeth lagi...

even relation yg kte bina b'akhir ngn ksedihn... o kisah yg x smpai... o prgaduhn...

tp prcayalah... stiap org yg ku knali tlh 'mmbina' ak pda ari ni =)

bkn smua kisah yg sedih tu cme mmbung mase...

cuba fkrkn...

"even prcntaan kita putus kt tgh jln, at least sy dh blajar cm mane tuk mnyayangi orng...

at least sy blajar cm mane tuk pjuk klau org majuk"

"even sy prnh kcewa yg amat sgt... at least sy tau ade kwn yg boleh kongsi rs sedih sy..."

"even sy dh cuba tuk mnyayngi awak, tp sy x boleh teruskn... at least sy dh fhm ap yg ati sy nk..."

better prpisahan ni jd skg... dr kte bercnta bertahun2... dr kte kawin n ank berderet2...

biar sy rs skit skg... ble relation kte hya babitkn kte berdua n bukan kluarga...

even waktu tuk kte bersame cme skejap, sy tau ade sy akn jmpa org yg lbh baik nnti~

-::without the wrong moves, we will never know thw right ones::-

saya minah kilang

baju uniform putih n b'sluar biru~ pkaian rsmi tiap2 ari~
"dh blajr bgus2, g la cr kje krajaan..."
bkn skali dua ak dgr psann dr pihak pnaja cm ni
ak cme mmpu senyum jer~

bkn x bleh cr kje krajaan... cme.. hm... minat tiada..
ak cr kje bkn tuk sethn dua..
nk kje lme...
klau bt kje yg x mnt, cm ne nk thn lame...?

np bkn kje krajaan? np d kilang?
sbg utama... sbb.. bju kurung (maaf sy tiada smangat Melayu yg kuat)
tu la sbbnye actly... x betah tuk pkai bju kurng stiap ari...
b4 ni pkai bju kurung ari ry 1st n 2nd jer~ tu pn klau blk kg..

sy ncr kje yg sntiasa ad kje.. hukhuk..

"kje krajaan sng.. byk bnefit.. ade pencen"
ok.. bnefit mmg byk... elaun itu. elaun ini... bla3...
(ha la. kje cikgu yg sparuh ari tu tgk elaun brape byk?) guru eyh? huh!
pencen? hmmm... i already plan for my retieremnt =) even i'm only 24 now...
insyaAllah... ak akn pstikn ak brsara ngn sng ati =) ... err.. 40 yrs to go?

i love my job =)
ok wht kje skg... great bosses i had (even Chinese bosses + my chinese manager)..
good environment (relation wif other employees even malay operators n org chinese admin)
n i had a great labmates..all are chinese  =)
owh... n i dont hv to brng any job blek umh.. good. time 4 my fmily n 4 myself
7 min away from home...
will get at least 2 months bonus every yr =) weee~!

but i thnk i'm in comfort zone~

....memikirkn krja br....